What are These Things?

Current mood: bouncy

One thing I have ALWAYS wanted was defined abs. Not masculine defined abs. Not even a six pack. Just a nice tummy. I've been in some state of fat-ness for most of my life. I look at the profile of other women and see the flatness of their tummies from the bikini line all the way to their twins and I always feel a twinge of jealousy.

And something that has always pissed me off about that is that there are so many females who really don't have to put much into that look. You may insert your own derrogatory comment for a female here. I am going to try to be nicer this year.

Last week I hit my workouts hard and was very serious about them. Again, went to the weight machine room twice and did five machines each. I hope to go in again this week three times. My previous goal for working out was aerobic/cardio five days a week. My revised goal is to do three to four days of aerobic/cardio every week and three days of weight machines every week.
I have still not weighed. That said, I have seen changes this week. I have had the pair of jeans I wore today for a couple of years. In the last several months I had noticed that although I was "losing" weight, my fat was just shifting somehow and in those jeans, I got the snausage above the waist of my jeans. Many modern ladies wear that snausage like a badge of honor with a tight top squeezed over it and all too often that top would be just short enough that one of the snaus-bags would make an unexpected appearance, that slippery little devil. I guess I am either a) too old fashioned for that look, or b) a little too proud to flash my fat badge in that manner. Back to my jeans... Today, they were not necessarily loose. They weren't even necessarily looser. But, the snausage could not be seen at all. Whoo-hoo!

I am losing weight the way my body usually does, top to bottom. Sounds strange, but this is what I've done every time I've lost. And, I carry a lot of back-fat so I don't always see the weight on my frame. Yesterday when I got out of the shower I noticed I could see my shoulder blades, and I had a mini-party right there in the steamy mirror!

On Wednesday or Thursday (swore I would remember the date, but forgot it already) when I was getting ready to go to the gym I noticed another change that blew me away. I had on my workout pants and sports-bra and was looking for the top I wanted to wear when I caught a glimpse of myself in the full-length mirror. I noticed something I have never had. I don't know what they are called, but there they were anyway. Just below my ribs on either side of my upper stomach there are these new indents. They are roughly the size of a deck of cards (and about that deep), only not necessarily the same shape. I was very excited to meet my new friends. I wasn't even flexing when I saw them. I went back after I got home and had showered and checked to see if they were still there. AND THEY WERE! The next day I threatened Travis' life and told him he better not make fun of me before I asked him to look and see if he could see them too. HE DID!

Apparently the ab-cruncher-hell-seat and the ab-bendy-thingy I did last week are pretty effective at giving you the abs Janet Jackson had in the "That's the Way Love Goes" video (although I am not quite there, that is my long-term goal, regardless of what the scale says). It was worth being sore in the gut for five days (so sore that sneezing and coughing were excruciating). I am going to do them again this week, along with the other machines in the room with which I am unfamiliar.

Maybe since I have noticed more definition in the shoulders, back and abs, this week will be the one when it looks like half my ass fell off.

Currently listening : Tummy Talk By Mr. Richard Release date: 05 September, 2006